WASTE OF TIME

One text away

2011-04-16T21:36:00.000-07:00

"Oy, pwede kayo ngayon? Tara."

"Ok go. Kita kits nalang."

Just one text. One text. One.

Wala ng tanong tanong kung sino sino ang makakapunta. Wala ng tanong tanong kung anong gagawin. Di na imporatante kung sino sino ang makakapunta. Di na importante kung ano ang gagawin. Basta pwede, go.

Kahit ba dalawa lang kami, ayos lang. No awkward and dull moments. Pagdating sa tagpuan, kahit ano na lang. Lakad... lakad. Kung saan man dalhin ang paa. Kwento... kwento. Hindi maubusan ng maikkwento. At kung may extrang pera, makakapag fishballs pa. Sila ang high school friends ko.

Naalala ko lang kaming dalawa lang ni Mulano. Pagdating sa Trinoma, pumunta kami sa food court at umupo lang dun at nagkwentuhan. Dalawang oras mahigit kaming nandon at salita lang ng salita. Dalawang oras lang, pagkatapos non umuwi na kami. Diba? Sobrang wala lang. Kailangan ko lang ng kasama at kausap, ganon na yon. Ang saya diba? Dalawang oras. Kung iisipin ko, sa ibang taong yayayain ko, malamang nagreklamo na yun dahil dalawang oras lang kaming magkasama. Dalawang oras lang kaming umupo sa food court. Tapos dalawa lang kami kasi gusto syempre maramihan kung gumala. Ganon lang yon. Ganon lang.

Di na imporatante kung sino sino ang makakapunta. Di na importante kung ano ang gagawin. Basta pwede, go.

Dear Mr. Pacheco

2011-04-10T20:18:00.000-07:00

Nabasa mo ba?

Kasi nabura ko na eh.

Okay. Hello na lang. :)

Alas quatro na.

2011-04-10T13:19:00.000-07:00

Madaling araw:

Ito yung oras na sobrang ganado yung utak eh. Sobrang pa-deep, wasak, sabaw, emosyonal, creative at kung ano ano pa. Ang daming ideas!

Anim

2011-04-10T12:59:00.000-07:00

Limang tao na hindi ko makakalimutan sa buhay ko sa pagpasok ko sa Konserbatoryo! Maraming salamat sa lahat. Pinasaya nyo ang mga huling araw ko sa UST.

At para kay Kuya Dingdong na hinangaan ko. Pinakilig nyo ako. Hihihi! Salamat! (Alam nyo na yon, alam nyo namang lahat yon eh.)

Maraming salamat sa inyong anim. Malamang hindi nyo ito mababasa gusto ko lang talaga sabihin sa inyo na..

HELLO.

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Gusto ko rin magpasalamat ng sobra kay Guido at Kirk. Sobrang nagparamdam sa akin na espesyal ako. Special nga ba o feelingera lang ako? Hihihi. Labyu.

Hi putang inang utak.

2011-04-10T12:15:00.001-07:00

Tangina ka, andami mong iniisip. Type ka ng type mga daliri, tangina mo rin. Tangina ka bibig, bigla bigla ka nalang nagsasalita. Gago ka utak, alam mo na kung ano yung nasa isip mo pero putang ina nitong mga daliri at bibig, di naman ma explain kaya putang ina. Yung mga kausap mo, di ka maintindihan. Putang ina ka eh. Leche ka isip. Eh kung wag ka nalang mag isip. Puta. Eh kaso, putang ina. Ayoko pa matulog, which is ang tanging paraan para wag mag isip. So yeah. Tangina ka. Bahala ka sa buhay mo, puta!

I know

2009-11-03T07:01:00.000-08:00

Someone once told me that I think about myself way too much.

I said he was wrong, and he told me a lot of people think so too.

I don’t think I’m selfish.

But like he said, a lot of people think that I am- so who’s the one telling the truth? The reality? Me?

Or them?

Blag

2009-05-12T19:55:00.000-07:00

Me' nakapagsabi saken, pagnagkaron ka ng blog. Kailangan daw palagi mo to i update.

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UPDATE.

Ok. Tapos na.

Walang title.

2009-05-12T01:23:00.000-07:00

I'm tired and I'm right and I'm wrong.

And it's beautiful.

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lesgo.

Dead.

2009-04-30T21:17:00.000-07:00

Dear Lie,

You suck. You said you could fix anything. Instead, I'm f*cked. You made things even worse for me. If I had balls, I'd tell you "Get away from me!" - guess I'm not smart.

I let you unnerve me, I let you control me- afraid the truth would hurt me, when it's you that hurts me more.

Hey, Lie. You're dumb. You think you've got the best of me. You think you won- misread my vulnerability, but I've got your walls, now get the hell away from me. I've learned your art.

I won't let you unnerve me, won't let you control me. The truth will only free me- and your lies wont hurt no more.

Get outta my mouth.
Get outta my head.
Get outta my mind.
Stop putting words in my head.
You're nothing but trouble.
Get outta my life.

Get out of me, Lie.

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Dear Max,

It's your fault. Why'd you believe that you can get anything? So now, you're f*cked. And things are even worse for you. Too bad you don't have the balls to tell me to get away from you.

It was fun to unnerve you, and control you. You thought it was the truth that would hurt you, when it was me all along.

Hey, Max. It's too late. I've got the best of you. I know I've won- you think you're strong, but you can't reach my walls, and I'm not going anywhere.

I'll keep unnerving you, controlling you. How can the truth free you when it's a lie like me that's holding you back?

I'm in your mouth.
I'm in your head.
I'm in your mind.
And I'll be every word that you just said.
You know you want this.
I am your life.

I am you.

16 vs 38

2009-04-30T02:03:00.000-07:00

I've been awake for 16 hours now.

A few months ago, I was awake for 38 hours straight.

But I learned a lot more in the 16 hours than the 38.

What I can and can't do.

What I can and can't say no to.

Who I care about.

Who I should care about.

When I should keep my guard up.

When I should step up and say what I want to say.

How easily fooled I can be.

How stupid I am to believe things will get better.

...because they won't.

The Beginning

2008-02-24T00:40:00.000-08:00

The End.