Dead.

Dear Lie,

You suck. You said you could fix anything. Instead, I'm f*cked. You made things even worse for me. If I had balls, I'd tell you "Get away from me!" - guess I'm not smart.

I let you unnerve me, I let you control me- afraid the truth would hurt me, when it's you that hurts me more.

Hey, Lie. You're dumb. You think you've got the best of me. You think you won- misread my vulnerability, but I've got your walls, now get the hell away from me. I've learned your art.

I won't let you unnerve me, won't let you control me. The truth will only free me- and your lies wont hurt no more.

Get outta my mouth.
Get outta my head.
Get outta my mind.
Stop putting words in my head.
You're nothing but trouble.
Get outta my life.

Get out of me, Lie.

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Dear Max,

It's your fault. Why'd you believe that you can get anything? So now, you're f*cked. And things are even worse for you. Too bad you don't have the balls to tell me to get away from you.

It was fun to unnerve you, and control you. You thought it was the truth that would hurt you, when it was me all along.

Hey, Max. It's too late. I've got the best of you. I know I've won- you think you're strong, but you can't reach my walls, and I'm not going anywhere.

I'll keep unnerving you, controlling you. How can the truth free you when it's a lie like me that's holding you back?

I'm in your mouth.
I'm in your head.
I'm in your mind.
And I'll be every word that you just said.
You know you want this.
I am your life.

I am you.

16 vs 38

I've been awake for 16 hours now.

A few months ago, I was awake for 38 hours straight.

But I learned a lot more in the 16 hours than the 38.

What I can and can't do.

What I can and can't say no to.

Who I care about.

Who I should care about.

When I should keep my guard up.

When I should step up and say what I want to say.

How easily fooled I can be.

How stupid I am to believe things will get better.

...because they won't.